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TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN…..

WOW !!! I was moved beyond words by all the people who responded to my « open letter ».   Really, I did not expect that, I was just saying thank you, because I mean…  because I don’t know what else to say !

My heart screams a lot of things.  Maybe I am foolish, because I hve invested feelings in everyone who has showed me any type of caring.  I often think about you, hoping that you are all well.  Maybe for some « we » (us inside) are something to do, but for me you are all my family !  I may never get the chance to know each of you personally, but I know your names… therefore you are all in my family tree.

I told you all my story, so most of you know the details of my life.  Both of my parents are dead, I have a brother who I am not close to. And for me, that is fine, as pretending to have something I don’t is nothing short of a waste of time.  I learned first hand what it is like to have it all (two great parents), and to have nothing.

I came to you sad and broken…. Maybe even defeated, but you helped me survive.  That means the world to me,  thank you was all I had to give.  And I meant it (still do) from the very bottom of my heart.

Whatever we talk about…. Whatever I write about, it comes from my very soul.  Everything is emotional…  everything is urgent.  I have saw people die, killed right in front of me, I have saw good people come in here and just get swallowed by the madness within these walls…  I’ve seen some lose their minds because the pressure of living this life was too much.  Some have wished for death because living was asking too much.  I walk with, sit next to, and share laughs with people who have no hope… who are living to die, and it just kills me, because I’ve been there, I know what it is like.

I speak with each of you as individuals,  yes the same letter is sent to you all but my heart speaks to each of you…  I hope that I am not just something to do…. I hope that you can really feel me, because I mean every single thing I say.  People die all the time, and really, it matters.  But the flip side of it is, when a person is treated so bad that he/she wishes for death. Before I came to prison, I had never seen it…. Hundreds of people wanting to die because they are treated worse than an animal.
I woke up one day, and I was just tired …  I woke up thinking I might as well be dead if I don’t fight for what I believe in.  I believe in Tyree,  I’ll fight to the death for him…  I believe in life as a whole, not just mine but every single life that hangs in the balance of our justice system.   Yeah, I’d die for each of them too.  My life isn’t the sum of humanity, that title belongs to each and every one of us.  Every time one person dies, so too does apart of us who continue to live.  I put my heart into what I do,  because I might as well be dead too if I didn’t…  I do it because my love is for real…  my best wishes, my passion for each person who cares about me…  about us in here won’t rest in silence.  No one can sleep very well when they know that they have something to do.

If your heart isn’t in this fight, you are wasting time…  if you go to bed and sleep well, you are wasting your time.  Yeah, I know I am hard, but I expect the world from each of you.  I hold you to a very high standard. That in itself is a part of my love…  it is a small taste of my trust and belief in you.  Yep, I am challenging you all, because nothing gets better without having it’s limits pushed.  I’m pushing because I know you will respond…  I know you will answer the challenge.  My faith in you… and you… and you and yeah, you too, is blind.   I believe as a whole that one day we will make the impossible possible.

Life has never been simple,  that’s why it’s so special.  In every aspect…. in every city, town, state and country life means everything.  Do, how can we sit back and watch as so many people lose theirs ?   It starts and ends with us, don’t ever forget that !

Respectfully,
Tyree
December 23, 2010
18:00